I'm still pinching myself....Home finally!

This is our little sweet pea....baby N is finally home.

My induction led to an eventual C section and a few tears in the cervix and uterus in the operating room that seemed like ages ago.

Baby N was born on July20th at 940pm, weight 9.6 lbs and 20.5inches long, she did not arrive quietly.

The recovery process has been rough-wound healing on top of lack of sleep aren't exactly the best combination when it comes to caring for newborns. Baby's weight dropped from 9.6lb to 8.5lb in 5 days:/  Things got easier when we came home and started having doulas visiting and helping. For the first time baby N seems to be well fed after I had struggled with breast feeding for days in the hospital. Tomorrow we are going to see baby's new pediatrician, hopefully her weight has started to bounce back...

Mucus plug

After a rough night last night with constant "need" to go pee and persistent cramping, this morning I finally lost the mucus plug. I should be exhausted but actually it's not too bad as we are going to pack up the hospital bag and do a thorough clean at the house today!

Things are progressing slowly but nicely:)

Sunday!

"--you're so DUE..!" says my OB yesterday.  Since everything on the fetal non-stress test came back super positive, she has decided that baby has officially over stayed her welcome in my belly, so we are going to surrender to the maternity wing at exactly 9pm this Sunday.  3 more days before a whole new chapter of our life with the little monkey we have been expecting wayyyyyy too long!

Today is the day! Or not?

Today is my due day!!!!!!!

However no baby movement has been felt!!  

Guess my OB's right--"5 more days!" She says....

We'll have to wait and see......☺️

Complete nursery pic:)

Working hard on completing the little paradise for baby N...all curtains are hung and furniture are in...phew....

Going through a very emotional time waiting for the little peanut to arrive...my mom posted a video on my FB wall, a really cute video of a young mom caring for her twin boys that I have watched already. But it's the words that got me...my mom wrote something like "thank god baby N's coming alone" in reaction to the video..I can't believe knowing what I went through with the loss of our twin she would write something like that, as if I should be happy and relieved about it.  Clearly I have not gotten over it. And I know I have not gotten over it, even though it was all for the best....

I hid the video from my timeline so my mom won't be offended. Still I wish she would communicate with me, rather than putting things on FB...