7th iui on the way with new donor

Switched NECC to Fairfax, donor with impressive record of birth rate, wow.
Here we go again.

The Right To Be A Mother

Did a hpt that was stark negative. I knew it too well, so there is no need to waste more hormone, therefore i stopped progesterone last night. Yes, there are MANY MANY "miracle stories" out there where people had their hpt positive past 10 dpo, but I know me too well, I know that empty feeling within me, for 3 years I know it every month.
I refuse to be the certain percent of women who could never give birth, it will happen and I will do anything and everything to make that happen. If anything, I deserve to be a mother, i am entitled to be a mother and even if this is going to be the hardest battle
In my life, I'm gonna win it.

Already knew it

9 dpo, symptom including all progesterone manifested sensations: sore bbs, cramps, higher tem...
Woke up this morning feeling "empty"inside, such had been felt in every failed cycle. Had a weird light LH surge in the am, then it's gone by the pm. Hem.....

Bloody f-ing day

I just want to cry and curse. several people on my Facebook either posted about being pregnant or have already given birth.
When the hell is my F-king turn????????????????????????????????????????
And, I'm truly happy for them... I just would like my fucking turn please, 3 years is long enough in my opinion.

Oral bbt VS. Vaginal bbt??

My bbt hasn't raised...so today I tried vaginal bbt---holy moe! Huge difference! Regular oral bbt 97.6 and when taken vaginally is 98.9-99.1!
Wth?? Think I'm going to start charting bbt again. After the prob now I'm having a lower an cramp. Jesus come ---on!! :((((

6dpo.... Already feeling low

Cried in my hubby's arm today, feeling totally bummed. We are trying too hard perhaps?? But what else can I do?
Is there anything else I can do?? I wish there's a way to knock me off for a couple of weeks after iui...

4 dpo crappy mood

Here I am again, on my 2nd injectable round, 6th iui total, feeling the completely lost, insecure, crappy and miserable 2WW. I'm testing the trigger this time, so far the strip still has a visible line, I think It will eventually be gone by next 4 days or so. It made me wonder if the shadows I saw from the previous cycles which I thought were miscarriages were actually just left over triggers...I've become soooooo good at squinting at the strips....