On my way

Our last cycle yielded one beautiful 3AA. But it was an abnormal embryo.....
I'm onto my 11th & my very last cycle, after my June cycle being canceled due to early period arrival....:(
Husband is home with our little buggar, she is so full of life and curiosity. As Dr. Surrey says if all fails we still have one little bean who will always light up our lives.  I hope this won't be our end resort....I  feel so incredibly detached from this process right now. Back when we first started IVF in 2010 I never would imagined  where we would be today.  While I am happy that I can do the cycle alone this time, I feel so sad about leaving my daughter for another two weeks :(....

The journey continues--

As of now we have one 3aa being biopsied for CCS, so onto another round we must plan for the summer-- hopefully sooner than later...

new cycle--#10 here we come

It has been truly a long time since I felt any motivation to whine about life on my blog. There's plenty to be whined about, but that's life. My heart is full when I see our little girl thriving. Sometimes I can hardly believe the power of observation of a 20 months old! She's such a spy!
So I've started priming for another retrieval later in March. Already we have suffered some would-be serious set backs and emotional distress (ugh, why can't they end??). We nearly couldn't all travel together due to bureaucracy, then there is the Nor'easter in Philly. Fingers crossed that our flight doesn't delayed too much, or get canceled completely. ...!
I have a new nurse now. She is hand down AWESOME.
TBD, I guess! Taking off in 3 days!

Hard to believe... 

Big leap

Baby N is 6 months old, in fact she's heading to her 4th pediatric appointment on Wednesday. I am doing alright, having had a few very emotional and feeling-down days possibly caused by returning of aunt-flo (finger crossed).

We are moving. The move is stressful as everything needs to be in place when we get there so baby can transition smoothly, plus the cat and the dog need to fly as well. There goes the zoo again!

Baby N is showing so much personalities these days that scares me what she would be like when we return, or will we?

The would be child

My lost twin would have been 3 months old yesterday.  I think about him/her all the time, and how we parted the short ways. It just left his/her sister, or faded to ensure her growth. Whatever the reason was, someday baby N will know that she wasn't alone at conception.

My sweet sweet pie, mommy misses you.

Check list

So we are heading to Denver at the end of the month to complete the last round of PESA for S. His lab looked fine according to the urologist accords the street from ccrm, so here we go again.....

However, this would be the first family fly together:) I'm both nervous and excited about this important trip, hopefully we are one more step closer to completing the TREE!

Finally, our amazing little sleeping champ has been doing 9pm-7am straight this week at 2.5 month!! Still I'm so paranoid that I have to check on her anyway;)