Starting the Patches soon

Soon being next Wednesday. The momentum sets in!

LAST BCP!

Took my last birth control pill today! :) Lurpron continues though until around Oct 17.

Uterine scratching!

Sitting in the reception area at RMA philadelphia (which has moved since May), it's a quite day here. I took some Valium just before coming in, hopefully this will go as painless as it can be.

Update* It was not as bad, but I also had no idea how it could pan out. It did go by quickly. My doctor was fantastic; she was a brisk yet caring person, she was communicative during the procedure. An intern who was in her 2nd year of residency even held my hand through the whole thing. It was overall a great experience... Well, Uterine scratch, check!

Quest to finding alternatives to caffine

5:30 AM the little boy next door who must have an exceptionally strong vocal cord and terrifically awesome breath support (also merci to the developer who did not think insulation in the walls goes with elegant urban living) woke up crying out loud for daddy....he has been really active this week, since this is his

 first week of kindergarten.. *_*

I am 2 weeks off caffeine! :) It's getting a bit easier with breakfast and during the day but hard otherwise, particularly with brunches where I'm expected to gobble down huge plates of French toast with......camomile tea?? That just won't do :( So I've been searching for a strong in taste yet decaffeinated alternative to coffee in the vast category of TEA. So far I find--

Roibois tea 

and 

Roasted barley tea

 great substitute to coffee if you enjoy a strong taste, and you can add milk to both to create a creamer taste :)

Uterine scratching

My nurse asked for my latest PAP results, since my last PAP was done on Oct last year, I decided to have an annual. Good thing my insurance covered everything including some blood tests.
Next week I'll have the Uterine Scratching procedure at RMA Philadelphia, I also asked my OB if she could prescribe me a small dose of Valium for the procedure. When I called, my OB's nurse answered and her first question to me was :" Hi! Are you pregnant?" Me:"Umm, not yet.."
Then she asked if I would be going to them for OB care when we are pregnant, my answer was of course I would! I'm not pregnant and I already love my OB (also her last name is Devine, haha).
Getting FET meds ordered from King's pharmacy, they are arriving tomorrow. Things seem to be rolling along quite nicely, with only one more week of BC left, I should be in a much better shape.
Fall is definitely coming, wow what a summer! S and I are heading to the beach to make up for the lost  times, we have so much coming at us in the next 3 months :)

Intersections of emotions

Perhaps the worst part of infertility doesn't dwell on the failed attempts, but the time we spend before and after each cycle.
I've been on BC for a week and already I am an emotional wreck.  Every morning we wake up to the neighbor's kids crying, yelling and laughing, it's how we know their schedules. It's such a contrast sometimes hearing how noisy and vivid the next door is while it's almost perpetually quiet except when our dog gets anxious about going out or chasing the cat around. Our world is quiet.
I know I'm not alone, there are sadly many, many of you out there struggling to get through each day, but at this moment I feel alone and unresolved, as if I have stopped evolving through life.
Infertility sucks.

BC day2/CD d4/pre-FET countdown 44days to go!

It has been 5 years since I was on birth control.  I hate those yellow little pills! So far my reactions to them include nothing yet but sensation of thirst, but I'm sure as we kick off with Lupron, Vivelle patches, Medrol, Doxy, Aspirin, Endometrin and the infamous PIO shots there will be plenty to lament for.

I also completely parted ways from alchoho and caffeine, alchoho was easy but caffeine....in some days that is the only thing makes me want to get up in the morning;/  

We all need something to look forward to, right?

I went to get my BC yesterday to kick off the FET prep cycle, it was shocking to see the candy aisles were FILLED with Halloween candies!! It's only the beginning of September!!0_o It suddenly occurred to me that we spent our last Halloween at CCRM for the ODWU, and I was all disappointed that we couldn't take our fur pal to his first pet Halloween contest... It has been a year already!! Geesh! Pretty sure my FET will either be right on the calendar or before it, since my lining has always had my back against all other odds and challenges. Let's hope this time nothing changes on that end...

Meanwhile I'm trying to remain physically and mentally occupied, not the easiest thing to do right after going through some tightly scheduled training program...guess I'm just having a withdraw symptom:/