Time flies...

The little prince is already gotten his christening, and is growing bigger every time he's under the spot light.

I remember, when everyone was gossiping about Wil & Kate's "baby issues" and making all kinds of assumptions, I kind felt there was still time for me since one of the most expected couple in the world is still figuring things out... And next--Bang! Preggers! 

It kind of depresses me, being abusolutly no where with our dream- absolutely nowhere....while others are beating the clock on baby making:(

But hey, here's something to hang on to, the Duggar family is "having issue" coming up with their 16th baby!

I admit, I feel very alone today. 

Recent Stuff

There hasn't been much said or done recently since our phone consult, we did book flights and hotel. Since we are only going to be there for 1 1/2 day, there is obviously not much on our bucket list for "fun", we need to get as much done as possible during our ODWU. Our day starts at 6:46AM, first meeting with nurse, financial stuff, tests for both S and I, etc.
On another note, our puppy Mozart has finally grown to like his crate (SOB..!) He's been such a good boy, though with a few puzzling new habits, I can tell he's going through phases (GOTH INCOMING?). HA.
I'm sad, about a forum that I went to often for support and pure infertility gossip, everyone knows what I'm talking about, right? It seems like they have lost their juice over annoying advertisement and equally difficult operating platform. I'm not even positing anything anymore because it's pointless, people who are vocal are moving on, and the rest rather stay browsing. A community is about interacting, communicating and supporting, I'm sad to see that gone.

Life with CCRM

We had our phone consult with DR. Surrey at CCRM this week. It went rather uneventful, they are willing to try a cycle with us, if we can't get the embryos to divide at lease we could get an answer from them.  I went to get my chromosome and Beta3 intergrin done yesterday, my OB was unfamiliar with Beta3 so he requested to speak with ccrm about it. Out ODWU is scheduled on Oct 31st, how fitting is that? :-0

I have a feeling that this will be a long process, judging from our past experience, we are looking at January to February next year. 

Our new puppy has really grown in just 3 weeks, he's one head taller than before! However potty training is still tricky because we live in the city...yak:(

About that baby thing

...ever been told by someone, that she "didn't want babies because...etc,etc"?

And next thing you find out they are 6 months along expecting their sweet baby?

Always feels like a slap on the face...

Over joyed.. and...?

I'm so happy to have found out one of the ladies I follow is now PREGGERS! YAY!
As to us, last week I was offered some new responsibilities--so now I'm living with 4 deadlines.  With our PC with CCRM coming in a week, I wonder if I should send them our record?...
Our new pooch is great, although he is causing some issues at home with potty training...go figure! :/

Phone consultation with CCRM

We are all over the place-- ED, home insemination, and now, we have just booked a phone consultation with CCRM.  The consultation is free, so what the heck.  Our medical records are a thick stack of past failures waiting to be revisited.  Once organized I will enter them into the patient account. Seriously, I can't believe we have gone through 8 IVFs already...(:/

Our first puppy, home insemination and ordering sperm from Denmark

It's been 3 weeks since we came home, everything has been on the emotional-side because after all the chaos, we are exactly where we were before the summer.  We are kind of stuck waiting for donors from both Madrid and CHR right now, that could take months even if we are lucky.  Meanwhile my body is quietly going through its natural cycles, and that makes feel... Empty.  I started to seriously looking into home insemination with donor sperm again, something I did before while doing iui at CWRC.  The truth is, I hated going to CWRC, it just felt so mechanical and depressing. 

 The doctor in Denmark made it very clear that while my eggs are weak, they will however thrive on a "18 year old's sperm".  I know this sounds funny coming from someone with 11 iui and 8 ivf under her belt and still trying-- but I do totally believe that my body can conceive naturally one of those times, except I would do home insemination than going to a clinic. Right near my home there is a small clinic that offers walk-in scan/bloodwork etc, and that's all I'm going to do-- get a scan on day 2& 13, and inseminate myself at home.

We are ordering sperm from Cryointernational Denmark. Although our choices of donors ate limited only from the "USA compliant" donors (smaller pool of course). The shipping is 2 days from the day of order, so if I order on Monday (they only ship between Mon and Wed) I should expect it on Friday. The sperm is going to arrive in a hydro tank, which needs to be returned after usage. The tank can stay cold for a couple of weeks if you don't peek into it. If they ship to a private residence, they will attach the home insemination kit with it.

I've called Fairfax cryo about home insem, however they require doctor's consent. Now we all know insemination is a simple process provided you know well what you are doing. Since we've been dealing with this for 4 years, I'm comfortable doing it while waiting for plan B to take place.

Our new puppy comes home early tomorrow morning since it wasn't planned by us but the seller were able to ship him off earlier, we had to rush out to get toys, food and crate for the him today...;)