What now?

While waiting for our ccs results I contacted my nurse to see if Dr.Surrey could email the result. The answer is yes he could email and notify us when the results become available but not the details, so when I get the notification we'll dial in to speak with him, which is fine.

I'm nurvous about the outcome obviously , but this is the most important step for us on our ivf journey so far, I want to remain  strong for what's coming next...

3

Embie lady called just as we sat down for lunch.
3 blasts biopsied and frozen, awaiting CCS.
Curiously, nothing yield out of this cycle, the 3 blasts were all from the previous 5 Day2 frozen ones.
Anyway we are happy to welcome our first milestone. Almost as soon as I hang up the phone, something inside of me started to feel very attached to our 3 embie, as if I just want them back in now and never mind the CCS :)
I'm holding on sharing my report with the group until  a few more ladies get their new, hopefully all great news!

Just for the nerve...

Likily our day 5 report will be disappointing, since the issues we are dealing with are fairly critical. I just want to give myself and S a mental hug, while waiting for the final verdict. We did good and although we will be saddened by another empty dream, we will collect ourselves and move on.

What makes me happy---

--is to hear BFP from my fellow ivf bay jumpers :) Meanwhile I'm nervous about our big report tomorrow. I would like to see our little embryos growing healthy and strong and ready to be back to their mamma, but hey we are the 1%ers ready to go to the donor route...

Small update

As of yesterday, out fert-report remains almost the same:

1 fertilized--being observed for development
2 matured overnight with ICSI--uncertain of fertilization, likely not
6 matured with ICSI--uncertain of fertilization, likely not
5 day1 frozen embryos from cycle1-- thawed well and being observed for development

Monday will bring the punch line of out final attempt against what was said to be less than 1% chance(not by CCRM) for S and I to have children through IVF...I guess I will now go and enjoy my weekend?

Fert report:[ not the best news in the world

Well here we go-

13 retrieved, 7 matured;1 fertilized normally; 2 matured over night that will have ICSI; there are 6 eggs will be observed to see if normal division takes place, however chance is slim.

Embie lady will call tomorrow about the late comers, Ugh!

Dejavu-13 eggs again!

Retrieval went really well, I had no spotting  whatsoever afterward:) I slept for almost a hour after the retrieval, ha..blame on the nice nurse lady who let me doze! :)

I have to give it to the patient care/anesthesiologists/embryologists, they are an excellent team of doctor and nurses. They truly make me feel that amongst their crazy long list of patients, somehow, I mattered. And I can always count on their warm and caring hands to bring us good news..
 Sometime early tomorrow we will be getting the call from the embryologist, probably on our way to the airport. I'm so nervous to find out the fertilization rate from this round because we used sperms from TESA, rather than from PESA, which requires more work by the embryologist. And the sample is about 3 years older than the last sample used. That being that, we have no regret to have devoted our hail Marry effort with CCRM, no one ever retrieved 13 eggs from me, TWICE!

Regardless what the fert report is, they will take our 5 embies out from the last cycle and together grow with whatever matured and fertilized from this cycle into hopfully blats and biopsy for CCS. That still sounds like a long road down, but at least we are over with the retrieval part.

 If miracles do happen, which I find it hard to imagine now, I don't know how I would feel, having been a IVF loser for all this time and being told our chance is less than 1%..I just don't know how I would feel. I do know how I would feel if we don't find light in these two cycles, we'll move on to have children, even if they are not complete biological...